I am heart-broken.
Please give my love to Ann and Rud and Amy and Katy. I know that they must be dealing with a lot in addition to their loss, right now. Jay has meant so much to so many people.
A visit back to Lawrence has been always just around the corner, but hasn't materialized in years, and now I am in Berlin, a million miles away... Lawrence will be so much more empty when I do make it back.
Jay and I made a trip once together to Nashville and I know Rud and Ann have mentioned it before as if to give me accolades and thank me for making it possible, but to be very honest with you, one of the reasons that Jay's picture sits on my dresser as one of the family is that that trip and all of our experiences together meant as much to me as they did to him.
It's hard to explain, given how many years it's been since we've had a chance to chant Jayyyy - T!- T! together, but I will miss him very much -- it's not just Lawrence that will be emptier for me. I truly don't wish to sound corny in any way, here, but I don't know how else to say this. There is, simply, a place in my heart that will always be cheered when I look at this picture and always feel a deep sadness when the thought catches up with me that he is no longer among us driving somebody crazy and at the same time making them love him all the more.
In Sadness and Very, Very Fond Remembrance,
Tom Allison
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